This site has been left to collect an amount of dust that is unbearable. Aplenty of things have happened to me, my other half, my family, my friends and my surroundings. Only that I can't put the feelings emotions and thoughts to words for those moments I went through.
That I chose this very day to lay most of the not so happening things. In the comfort of a chair, Mac PC (1st timer tho!) with uniquely sounds played by the boys and their toys in NIE, Mac Centre. Nothing else will be more peaceful than this. Yes I am referring to the Mac PCs. Not the boys and their forever progressive toys that ARE never enough. Yes RuxtA, you know what I meant. :p
2010, for all that WE wanna it to be as surreal as it can be. Turning 27 on the 4th Jan somehow made me complete. All because a month before that very day, I found out that I'm pregnant. It was not really my plan to get it check, all my due intention was to get an MC. Honestly speaking it was December for what I knew and already planted at the back, front and sides of my brain that it gonna be my lazy month of the year. Besides being all tired, I wanna get my urine tested. Then when I returned to the doctor's room, I can clearly remember her words "Congratulation Sayang you're pregnant.." and believe me this was what I told her "Oh you mean this kit shows it's positive?" Yes silly but I was happy. Texted Hubby to tell him the news followed by Zulie and then Cousin Maria. We (4) kept the news as a secret except that of course they gotta tell their other half. Secret it was, not a single word or sign to any other friends, and family. Even our very own parents.
On 14th December, I experienced some blood discharge. Read through various sites as I already knew that it could mean up to no good. Hence that night, I went to KK 24hr clinic to confirm everything, that evening I finally get to see the lump of blood with heartbeat. Syukur Alhamdulillah.
Two weeks later, I finally told my parents. By simply giving a white envelope to my mak. Telling her that there's money inside and it's for her. Tricked her to open it up to only find the Ultrasound picture. She did not say a word but 2 minutes later when my 17 year old niece knew what it was, she said "Dah ada?"(you're pregnant?) but my mak still kept quiet passing it to my bak. Then mak said "Siapa punya ni?" (Who it belongs to?) Classic question ever. 15 minutes later she came to me and finally asked why I kept it from her for too long.. That felt good after telling them, then Hubby told my in-laws few days after. Then slowly to close friends and cousins.
And now I'm already coming to 14 weeks. I've decided to lay it out here. Though my relatives especially my cousins are clueless. I really hope they get to read this and finally knew about my condition. :) Please don't take it the wrong way, as I have my reasons for keeping it from all of you. I would like to let it past my 1st trimester first, as these 3 months are the crucial months and my another reason would be a lil personal but meant only for her. I really hope you understand why I kept it from you, I so feel you my dear cousin. Hence I didn't wanna somehow hurt your feelings. I can't seem to make myself tell you the news eventhough the other cousins already knew by now. I'm truly sorry, I am.
Few days ago, 10th Feb went for my 2nd checkup and this time, we could see tiny hand waving at us. Probably saying Hi to mummy and daddy. :)
My eldest brother remarried on 6th Feb. Hubby will be entering the Police Force next month.
Last but not least, it is totally random.. I'm so crazy for more G-Shock watches! Random Yes I know. :p
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