18th Sept 06

Listening to the soothing sound from the gamelan, seruling, gendang and rebana gave me the peace of mind everytime. It suits my mood each time I hear them. Mad, furious, happy or joy, it fits them all. I will then imagine dancing gracefully to the sounds.. I used to though. Back in the skul days. The happiest time ever when I get to dance and practice with friends. All bad things come to an end when we start dancing and so into it, we were on trance and smiles on our faces.

How I wish there is some place where I can pour out the inner me by just dancing. Im not that good with the grinding and popping.. but to be able to dance gracefully is something I wish I can showcase to. Stealing moment in my room, dancing to the sounds of javenese tunes put a million wider smile to my face.

I miss those times.. I really do.

Now that im feeling a lil down with you, how I wish I can dance and express my expression. I would really wanna do dat.. but there is no way I can do it on my own.
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Happy 22nd Birthday to my lovely gf.. Qistina.. Lurve yu gerl. Muacks.

7th years anniversary

Do you remember the time
When I first met you it was love at first sight
Like a shooting star above
Boy I made a wish hoping we would fall inlove
And here we are today
As we celebrate another year together
I love you more than yesterday and as the time goes by baby I just wanna say that

I appreciate

Everything you do for me
And every time that you are there for me
The fact that you believe in me
Boy I appreciate you loving me
Those moments when my strength was gone
I couldn't quit cause you kept holding on

Today's our anniversary and I appreciate you loving me

To know that you're here by my side
You're so beautiful I cherish you forever
Nothing else would change my mind
Boy I'm stuck on you
Gonna spend my life with you
Even when the days are dark and cold, you always there for me, always
by my side, keeping me warm

Alone I'll never be again,cause in you I know I got a friend and I appreciate

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Happy 7th year anniversary Ruxta, my one and only hubby.

7 years in the making and 2-3 yrs to go for our big day. I want you to know that I'll always be thankful with you by my side everyday I am so grateful to have YOU. Time spent by the beach yesterday was fun. Tonite's dinner will be beautiful. May the Almighty Allah bring us together one day. lets pray that my mom's prayers everyday be granted to see us together. Thank you for loving me and my family. especially my mom. and trust me she loves u too huney.

I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you
Sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful

To have you by my side

I heart you loads hubby.. Muacks! Hugs..

weight issues

its nt even 8am and i decided to post out alil sumthing-sumthing. its jus da 3rd day of the week and im already feeling all shagged and lethargic. ankle and knee still killing me despite the deepheat i applied every morning and night. shesshh.. due to this i turned down Ruxta plan for a jog last sunday.

wow! tina lost 3kg. happy for her. while me still having this weight issues. sigh.. self esteem level going down. pursuing the need to loose some weight. weighing myself on the scale. still showing me the same digit however im feel heavier. much heavier.

due to desperation. i purchase alil sumthing. not reali sure if it will work out well. anihoos. no harm trying it out. i'll be monitoring myself and gosh. i gotta watch my meals. and so there will be less of the second serving nurul. lately my appetite has been BIG. super huge dat I can eat almost any leftover. and now complaining of weight issue.

fickle minded. just a complain freak...

arrrgghh..pening.

T.A.N.N.E.D

skin got alil tanner now. liking it. but wanna it to be alil more tanner. and sunday will be da day. 10th of sept. celebrating 7th year anniversay a day in advance.

Gonna chill out with Ruxta and hope to get my skin tanner. =p

time spent with Ruxta has been blissful. Loving him loving the moments.

lurve u deep deep Hun.

I need to meet up with matilda for some bitching. hope da day will be tomorrow.

tonite i shall confirm with you MARIA MARIA.

Next Yantee.. den Nana.. all these to be done before Ramadhan.

This weekend. spending the time at da resort with Zulie, Kat and Nora.

we'll do some bitching, swimming, xbox gaming, movie marathon and more...

PLUS

yet another Drama Mama scene happening this friday.

and me.?? gonna be the 'judge'. time awaits.

Oh I Think Dey Like Me

bn offline from blogging. too uptight with schedules and more. and finally today i bloodyhell need a break. today's my company family day over at Siloso Beach. so pls avoid dat place ppl.. trust me u wuldnt wanna be there. gonna be packed like sardine!!.....

Anihoos. many issues to update. drama happening here and there. one drama i was kinda involve. but fark it bitch. mutherfarking milf. nuff said...

While enjoy this vid. Hubby got me addicted to the u noe the moves.. next in clubs(i think).. clubbers will be dancing like dat... hahhaa.. wanna bet.. i've seen it and i saw it last sat at Liquidroom. Gosh wat a sight to the certain moves...

to this one hot chinese gerl.. u rock my socks. damn...

Pain

i got 1 more free tic to WOMAD tonite. but donno who to give it to..

sleepyhead. ankle and knee still in their craziness pain. walking up the stairs. sitting down. moving them is killing me. used ice. apply oitment.all not werking.maybe i do need my dad's therapy til i culd scream and shout. been there done that. and that is y im avoiding telling dear mom and dad bout this.

my right leg ligament so weak now ever since I stop running back in sec skul days.

*miss those glory days.*

ok im out. in pain. now. shessh.

Viva La Musica

tyme passed so fast this week. gd thing is I did not lost track of da days but Ruxta and my 2nd bro did. but still my 2nd brother confidence amused me. Period.

witout me knowin and spending too much attention on the plans for this weekend. it suddenly got all packed.FAST. Afta work tmr, planned to accompany Zulie to Retro Flea market at Cine. Followed by Speakeasy with Ruxta at the Glass Hall, Arts Museum at 6pm.

Speakeasy turn 1 yr old.

I tot that was all but NO...!!
Tot of going for this event but due to seriously being broke in both pockets, we gave it a miss. but all thanks to my sista in law, we manage to go for this event.

ehemehem.... for FREE!

Hurray to US. we will be heading down to WOMAD this saturday ryte afta Speakeasy.

Yeah-ness!! Its all bout La Musica this 26th Aug 06.

Green Eyed Human

Read Anna's entry bout Liars and cant go any further but to agree TOTALLY.
Some political issues been evolving arnd me lately. so far i've neva come across this kinda situation. (thank god for all the pretty ppl arnd me..*winks*)

but in the train home yesday made me realised, i was one of the 'victim' before without me realising it. Aside to that, i don really give a damn at all. I've put so much tot into this matter. At first, i tot it was just a pure dim-witted thing to do/say. But as this issue getting more and more dramatic, i feel lyke saying my part and make this stop.

To her..Why are you making things worst? Why are you trying your best to tell others that you both are nt in gd terms now?Why are you making that sympathetic face of yours so ppl wuld pity you instead of her? why are you nt admitting your bloody mistakes?why are you pointing the jealousy image on her when you are the one who is jealous of her?
ok there are more WHYs to my tots and wonders.. i can go on til i go bonkers. it don concerns me but am getting sick of this.

First you lie to her. Then getting all the facts wrong. Misunderstood by what she emailed you before. Now claiming ppl are ignoring you.when at the first place, you're the one making your own way, own place, own werld to sit in. Then now telling others that 'ada org jealous dgn saya kat sini'. Lyke what the Big F are you trying to do..

You've been asking ppl making them asking her this and that. can you please stop it. stop this DRAMA MAMA of yours. why not u ask me instead? I wuld be glad enuff to tell u the truth and open up your bigger eyes. why ask others when you can ask me who is closer to her now.

First of all, i don fake my Hi's and bye's wit ya. dat was all genuinely ME. if you are daring enuff come up to me and ask me, tell me. Then again you wont dare to ryte cuz you've seen I've done some tongue lashing before and it was ugly. and one more favor, please don tell her that 'jealous tgk you and ikin mesra..'arrrgghhh... *my head spinning hard!*

People with pure envious green eyed attitude can jolly well walk out from my door. Have your own life, your own thinking. your own principles in LIFE. don be a copycat bitch then telling the other part of your sympathetic story to someone else. it just pissed me off.....

Well. i've done my part by bragging it here and its enuff for me. for now that is....

(after 2 months of DRAMA)

showcasing

my personal favourite. DJ Craze. showcasing his routines.

history

once again im torn. torn into pieces. is history makin its come back? wateva it is. i don wanna be troubled by all these trivia matters. though it does concerns me deeply. however. im used to this and i think i shuld jolly well just ignore this. aint wanna get angry for nutin.

if things happen to fail. den its all fate.

im resting my mind, body and soul and i wuld not wanna dat issue to make a mess of me.

enuff said.