Latina

i've bn listening to my dear DJ's mixtape everyday. lurving his latest mixtape too. i gotta admit dat i'm hooked to Ragga. The dance moves, the beats.. and most of all the language.

I've been into 'latin' since early poly days. since then i learnt the 'online spanish' to know some basic words. I took Spanish as an elective module in poly. So glad that I got in and i did well for the exams. spoken and written.

All Im saying is. Dont just love the music, but understand the words they are saying.

in short. the video i just added is my personal fav for now. its one of the song mixed in DJ Ruxta's Mixtape. To those who wanna see/hear what my MR DJ can do. DJ Ruxta and DJ SY will be having a showcase on DEC the 1st. Venue and time to be confirm. who knows. u mite be able to grab his latest mixtape.

and ZOUKOUT will be on the 9th DEC. for more info. Grab the latest JUICE magazine.

Summarised

splendid week spent. endless chatting wit nana. finally get to meet Ruxta without worries. break fast with poly-mates. laughter and tina's antics neva bore me and neva will. *wink*

working my ass-off at work. 6days a week. 8-10hrs in a day. kewlness. still i am surviving. coz last month. 28th Sept 06. marked my 2yrs werking here.

wow..!!

this weekend gonna b another hectic week for me. thursday out wit zulie. friday meeting at bugis. sat-projecting my hair and sun-sentosa, to collect my islander card and geylang to look for interesting baju for me and him.

and one last thing to say. I miss MARIA!!!!!.....

Cookie. u gotta meet kikin real soon ohkay. missing u much-much. Give me a holler ayte.

DAY SURGERY

nerve wrecking moment. long awaited procedure. at last. at 3pm he was called in. 3hrs later. i saw him and felt relieved when i saw him talking to the nurse.

Alhamdulillah. my dad's ok. now he's a pirate. right eyed pirate. and this yr. he'll be celebrating raya with dat. i wuld lyke to thank Tina, Zulie, Nana and Sham for ur concerns.

But definately not forgetting my Fiance. DJ Ruxta gave me a surprise visit yesterday. I had a HARD tyme waking him up in the morning. then received a sms frm him telling me he'll be late for work. but at 1plus. there he was walking in to the Day Surgery. I tot i was dreaming. Classic antic frm dear mom.. "eh kin, tu mcm arin je.."... me: mak! tu memang arin pun... All i can say, she was glad to see him there too..

To my DJ Ruxta:

Hubby.. thanks for coming over surprising me and mak. I felt much better with u by my side. Though im still missing you as much despite the 1 week of missing-ness.. You are my strength and pure weakness. It was sweet of you to take leave from werk just to accompany me. Those long awaited hours til u slept while sitting down, the 'tak seberapa' iftar with my family, and the uncomfortable seating position in bus 39 to Khatib. (i shuld have chosen a bigger space for u.. sorry dear)... All i can say is I TRULY LOVE YOU. I wuld like to thank you again and i believe my parents feel the same way too.. Thank you so much Hubby.. Muacks!!

STILL...

i need not have to wait til monday. its this saturday. the results will be out. im scared. cried the entire of last nite. still traumatised. still lost. still crying each time i tot of it.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Ku. Lindungilah dia. Ku mohon kepadamu. Ampunilah dosa-dosa ya. Berikan lah dia kekuatan untuk menghadapi semua ini. Kuatkan lah imanku untuk menempuhi semua ini. Amin.

Strength

Ya Allah. Please give me the strength to overcome this. I will need the strength to hear the truth, the ability to see him before and after the whole procedure, to look into her eyes waiting with me while its all done, to continue my fast despite the tears, to overcome all this. Amin.

7 years ago, I experienced this while I was alone at home. I cried. There was no exception for what happen just now. Despite Im 7 years wiser now; Im still not strong enough to face the reality and anything that will happen unexpectedly. I couldnt think. I could only cry. I will have now until Monday to build up my courage and strength to overcome this whole situation.
But for now, please allow me to cry.

VIRUS

if within a week or two from today i get it, im fully prepared. sadden me though.

but its a risk and sacrifice I have to do.

Gonna miss him loads though and breaking fast with his family.

*sob sob*

Ramadhan

month of ramadhan. the feeling of it is simply wonderful. this is the month wer family often gather together for iftar. not exceptional for my family especiali. as today remarks the 1st day of the month. my family is gathering ourselves over at my 3rd bro's crib to break fast together and celebrate my lil nephew's bday. and ofcoz watchin SG Idol together too. well. im not a fanatic however watching them perform on tv itself kinda interest me.

thanks to my lovely Ruxta. got me hookup with Blindfold Me by Kelis. o he so loving her, Mya and the late Aaliyah. making me feel all ugly and fugly each time i see their sexy pics stored in his Dopod. Dear DJ ordered few vinyls yesday including this particular one. and soon Im gonna have this track or shuld i say im gonna get the album soon.. Yeahness. Like i mentioned to him yesday.. only Jay Z can rap in B-yonce tracks and only NAS can do the same for Kelis. Celebrity in love. well i think they are match for each other.. NICE! Enjoy the vid.

and Happy Fasting to all Muslims.

Heart

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are flexible and ready for anything! You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

self declared SILLY

tell me y i shuldnt love him. he often captured my silliest expression. there are plenty embarassing pics in his dopod. god noes wat he does during his spare time. one thing i know for sure is that he'll be staring at some of the pics and start laughing. am i dat selenge?

aniway. take a look at tis. silly or not? one happy goober having his ice-cream last sat in swensen.

Say Goodbye

ever since i got my hands on the Chris Brown cd, track 13 has always bn my personal favourite. Just by listening to it, I can somehow relate to my life before. Once we used to go our separate ways more than twice. Bn through whole lot of shits before this. Boys, Girls, pure jealously, bestfrens and more..

eventually we turned back and return to each others arms.

we walked away from each other more than once. You were serving the nation in brunei. That was one of the moment. den again when u were away in Taiwan. One when i was away in Finland. one when we were here together but took off, we were somehow seeing someone else. but that didnt work out. for me at least. yet now, im still jealous over Her and another Her. call me nuts but sometimes i just love to tease u. but sometimes im not...

Maybe jealousy over the things that i think they have the plus points i dont. handling me was neva an easy task for you. from wat i see and learnt this 7 years together.

but with no complaint, you are here sticking by me STILL loving me each day despite all odds.

I love u Hubby. I really do. Im so sori for wat I said last 2 days. Please forgive me.